It's been a while that I have not updated this blog. The reason is that I ve been suffering from a very nasty condition -- poverty. I never quite put it as straight as this. I wish this blog to witness my happiness and success when I set it up years ago, and it seems so far that I have only recorded happy things, or at least my progresses. So when things goes nasty and my life totally out of my control, I dont know what to say to this blog. I know I will read them again in the future, when I write, I am writing to myself, I am recording my efforts, my progressive steps and my achievements, but shouldn't I also be totally frank to myself to record the dark side of my life, the pain, the shame and unhappiness?

 

Strangely, after all the year of my failures of earning money, I am thankful to the suffering. Poverty taught me a lesson that will influence my entire life, from which I have learnt

 

Not any penny comes easy

Even a mouthful food has the greatest value for a hungry man

Self-pity only make one more pitiful in other's eyes

Poverty is a good test for friendship

Respect every efforts instead of judge their outcomes

Perseverence might be the the only hope  

 

I have no idea when my difficult time will pass, maybe it never will, and in the end I accept that I am a man with no money in pocket, but I will still be the same man. Poverty may take away my honour in the eyes of others, may hit my stomach, may lead me a loney life (no girls likes pauper surely) but it will never take away my dignity and never conquer my heart and spirit. I shall enjoy my life in both good and bad conditions, afterall, life is given only once. Either poor or rich, it is my life.